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At this point, you may know a lot about the ULA program at GW and why all of us, coming from all walks of life, chose to become one. This post does not intend to greet you with even more information about the program. Instead, it is my personal story – a very unlikely but typical journey of a Chemistry ULA, a Biomedical Engineering junior, and an ex-Economics major. It is more like food for thought or a cup of jasmine tea at the end of the day. I don’t dare to think it will inspire you in any ways, but hopefully it can keep you reflective on your own journey, just like a late night cup of jasmine tea with a slice of lemon and a teaspoon of honey (or a Grande Iced Caramel Macchiato with a White Mocha shot - I got you, tea is not very everyone).
I’m writing this blog after a cozy dinner with my family. In this uncertain time, I would love staying in my room, covered in a warm blanket with my Samoyed dog Pipi by my side. It is raining heavily outside and this so much reminds me of the first day I was in America. It was so unusual for such a day in late August, especially in somewhere like Washington, D.C. My first day at GW was just like what I had expected (of course except the weather) – nice place, good foods, and great people. It definitely did not feel like home. Instead, I felt the urge to blend in with this place, to find out what it had to offer, and to accept challenges living in a foreign place and speaking another language. The first three semesters flew by with a busy schedule, and sometimes I got caught up with the questions, “What am I doing here? What do I want to do for the rest of my life?” I came to GW as an Economics major, which I used to pursue back in Vietnam, my home country. I understand it was a wild decision, dropping out of a prestigious college after two years and having a fresh start at GW. However, things seemed to not change much. I performed well but did not find joy in the classes of this major. As a distraction, I chose to attend some STEM courses. It was partially because of GW’s University Requirements, where it was required for Economics students to take at least one science course with laboratory. While most of my friends chose “Chemistry for non-science majors”, I picked University Physics. Yes, you saw it right. It was the physics class for engineering and Physics majors. Why, you may ask? It was actually an accident. I, in fact, wanted to try out General Physics but somehow mistook its course number with University Physics. On the first day of class, I was startled when my professor mentioned Calculus as a prerequisite for this course. I did take it though, but it was the very first level of the single variable calculus, not the second one. I was frustrated to be honest. Would I be able to ace this class or fail vulnerably? Would the history repeat itself when I used to have unimaginably terrible grades in high school Physics? The second class told me it would not be. The physics classroom at GW was special, to me at least. The physics department here applied the “Scale-up” model, where students were expected to work in groups, with the help of their professors and one or two Learning Assistants for virtually the entire class time. This meant the students were more independent in the learning process and encouraged to actively help and get helped. I was so thankful for Jose – my Learning Assistant at that time. Without him, I could not have been able to stand my group and perform well. Getting “bombarded” with questions like “why things have to be that way” or “how this theory is different from the other” helped me deepen my understanding about the subject. I was a shy person. I did not usually speak out and did not even dare to talk directly to my professor, so the presence of a Learning Assistant somehow calmed me down. When Jose saw me remain quiet, he called me out, asking questions. When my group was involved in a heated discussion, he would be the referee. His office hour was also the time my group would all go with questions about the class materials or the lab. While I understood professors’ office hours were a great resource, it was just so much easier and more comfortable for us to reach out to Jose. He was one of us. He was a student too. That might be the reason why his explanation to a complicated problem sounded more approachable and went a long way in terms of understanding. Thanks to Professor Qiu, and Jose, my time in the class would always be something I would mention when being asked about classes at GW.
Having had a great experience in University Physics encouraged me to try other science courses. Next, I chose Chemistry. This time there should have been no accident as there was no “University Chemistry,” but the class was very different from what I had expected. At the time, the General Chemistry classroom mostly resembled other social science classes. There was no scale-up like Physics. Students had no homework and there was no Learning Assistant. I was lucky enough to have Dr. McClary as my professor. For some, she might be hard and detail-oriented in class with high expectations for exams, but she was extremely friendly and always helpful in office hours. Thanks to her, I came to know that the ULA program was not available in the Chemistry Department back then. Despite some drawbacks in its classroom structure, I genuinely loved Chemistry. I could not explain why, but there was something about it that kept drawing me in for more. However, this could not change the fact that there was much less interaction in the classroom compared to University Physics. More than once during the course I felt lost. I wished I had had someone embedded in the classroom as an extra resource. More importantly, after the course, I wanted to become that person - someone like Jose. I wanted to become a Learning Assistant - not Physics, but a Chemistry LA. Thanks to those Chemistry and Physics, I again felt in love with sciences. I was intrigued about the practical applications of Maths, Physics, Chemistry, or Biology in daily life, which I never cared enough to study in a Vietnamese High School. GW did make me rethink my career choice. The more I debated with myself, the more I realized how much I loved applied sciences. As a result, I decided to transfer to the School of Engineering and Applied Sciences (SEAS) to pursue a career in Biomedical Engineering. Caring for underprivileged children and healing unfortunate communities became my utmost goal for the future. I wanted to contribute my humble heart and my limited knowledge to change how we were approaching health care and to assist the holistic progress of modern-day medicine. To the best of my knowledge, engineering had a great potential in doing just that. The next two semesters in SEAS were some of the best times in my life. I had a chance to be exposed to more science-based courses, learning about daily applications of elusive engineering and science principles. I felt accomplished thanks to the help and support of people around, and I genuinely wanted to pay it back. Maybe it was just me but I always thought life found a way to make things happen at the right time and the right place. By becoming a peer tutor at GW’s Academic Commons – one of several supporting academic services dedicated to the students at GW – for fall 2019, I had precious interactions with lots of students and faculties. By the end of the semester, I was invited to apply to become a Learning Assistant for both Physics and Chemistry. It was a hard decision for me, having to pick between my two favorite subjects – one giving back my love for science and one I truly loved. I chose Chemistry. For physics, I knew that it would always be great just like what I had experienced. The reason I chose Chemistry was because Spring 2020 witnessed some of the biggest changes in Chemistry classrooms, and I wanted to be part of this transition. Chemistry classes increasingly focused on student’s independent learning. There was homework assigned via ALEKS, and a weekly recitation session was also added to the schedule. Most importantly, the ULA program was restarted at the Chemistry Department. Chemistry ULAs were embedded in classrooms and closely monitored the student’s progress to best assist them with a separate review session and drop-in hour. I was happy as Chemistry students then had more opportunities to receive help to be successful in the class.
Time flies, as they always say. I have been a Chem ULA for a little over 3 months. I enjoy being in the classroom again, watching students gradually falling in love with Chemistry. I truly cherish the time I spent with the students. It is not only the words of appreciation but also the stories and the lessons I have learned from them. They taught me how to be patient and how to always look at things under multiple lenses. More than once, I saw myself in some of my students – lost, confused, and frustrated. I was thankful that at those times I was able to lend a hand, to let them know that suffering was a part of life it was totally “ok” to struggle at times. More than ever, I wanted to make sure they could tackle every challenge with courage and endearment. There were personal stories being told. It might be the story of a first-generation student struggling to find his place in GW. It could also be a story about a broken family of an athlete who tried to bury her emotions under those bright smiles. Sometimes, it was just simply a conversation about the future – life, goals, career. I have realized we each carry with us a story we do not want to tell, in fear that none will understand. It may slowly destroy and consume us from the inside until we are down on our knees. It is at those moments that we most need love and compassion. Being a Chemistry ULA has been a great experience. It taught me to embrace life with acceptance and compassion. We are more alike than different, and I am happy to be able to pay it forward, to the ones that are just scared and uncertain like I used to be. I have found my life aligned with my goal and passion in a very unlikely way.
I feel forever thankful to the ULA program and to the people at GW. They changed how I looked at the world and virtually all my reality about a happy and respectful life. I have now committed fully to medicine and to improve the lives of the unfortunate. I hope to pay back, to the best of my ability, more than what I have received. To you, my readers, I hope you have also found your goal in life. You do not have to change the world to be a respectable man. You are respectable when you can “infect” your happiness to the people around you. Make your first baby step to become the one you want to be, and who knows if being a ULA can give you encouragement and motivation to walk the paths less-travelled. Consider becoming one and write me your story.
I hope all the best to you and your family in this difficult time. Please stay safe and healthy.
For a cozy rainy night in Texas
- Khanh Nguyen